Survivor Mode

I think this will be my 4th or 5th round of “Thyrogen Therapy” over the past 15 years.  I call it: ShotInTheAss Therapy but that’s me.  One of the first times I got it; the nurse said, “it doesn’t hurt its just a shot in the butt.”  I was like “you say that cause its not your butt.”

But yeah its, Day 1 – Shot#1 & Day#2 -Shot #2, Left side then right side or vice versa.  Why I couldn’t tell you. I was like while I’m here just do the otherside, but no must come back in the morning. On Day #3 I go in for Nuke Meds – I take a radioactive pill, tracer meds. Day 4 – must be a day of rest or something, I do nothing.  Day 5 – Friday; they throw me in a machine and scan my whole body.

Thyrogen (thyrotropin alfa for injection) contains a form of human thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) and is used as a diagnostic tool in patients who have had thyroid cancer and needed a thyroidectomy (thyroid surgery), to detect any possible remaining thyroid tissue.

Common Side Effects of Thyrogen (Thyrotropin Alfa for Injection) Drug …

This past Tuesday the Imaging tech asks me are you doing the low idoine diet? Who me, no; do I look like I diet. LOL  Anyway I am now. Google Low Iodine Diet. It might as well say be a vegetarian; which is not a bad thing.  Been there done that. It’s just that its filled with NO’s. No salt, no soy, no diary, no chocolate, no ice cream, no fish or shellfish, nothing from the ocean,  no bread unless you make your own, no eggs buy egg whites are okay. Basically I’m not suppose to eat what I like. But you can have soda, WTH? 🙂
I think Wednesday will be the hardest. My appointment is at 1:30 pm, so I need to be fasting 4 hrs before the appointment and two hours after. WTH – bitch bitch bitch –
I’ve done this before and I can do it again and will probably do it in another couple of years.  I think its every other year . I need to write these things down I’m really bad at when or where or whatever. Oh yeah, its call Hangry.
But you gotta do what ya’gotta do. I always have this fear they will discover the ravages of my lack of dieting. My innards all outta whack in one way or another. Because machine wise – MRI, CAT Scan, whatever however all these full body scanning business; they will find shit you don’t even know exist along with the shit that you know exist. So yeah, scary! But not really, yeah really….. its psychological. LOL
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Malama Pono

It’s A Bread Thing

I love bread. Good bread. Homemade bread. The smell of fresh baked bread. hmmm

BUT I’m not suppose to have bread. Like rice, pasta and ice cream and anything that has sugar, you know the good stuff that I need to avoid. But you know when the doctor tells you; you can’t HAVE that, you kinda of fudge it and say “well just a little bit.” 🙂  Hmmm and that little bit makes you crave it more. Such is my life. LOL

I keep telling myself; I’m killing me. And me responds, “yeah just a little bit.”  I’m kind of slow like that. I think I’ve improved. I don’t go HOG wild. oink oink! Yeah I’m just a baby pig now, as oppose to the big pig that I was. 🙂

It doesn’t help that I work in a company that bonds over food and people bring food to share. If its on the kitchen table, its first come first serve help yourself.  Which is dangerous for people who have very low will power.

We have people who come from communities where they bake bread in outdoor ovens and make more then enough bread for the whole community.  My friends bring bread all the time. Their bread is healthier than store bought I think. No preservatives.  Ancient recipes from way back when.  Bread and buttah! I love bread and butter. ❤

I don’t think anyone has died from eating bread but I don’t think it helps the blood sugar thing, so eventually yeah it could lead a person to expire from the intake. So I should stop.

I write this while having a thin bagel and cream cheese. I was thinking THIN bagels are better/less bread then regular size bagels right. But I’m eating two thin bagels and I think that equals one regular size bagel.  FAIL 🙂  Note2Self:  YOU should not eat it all!  Okay fine, DO NOT eat bread, pasta, rice and sugar but everything else knock yourself out. LOL

Note taken. Okay after I finish this last bagel:)



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Malama pono


Ice Skating

I had never ever been ice skating. But my #1 Granddaughter had her birthday at a skating rink. So I participated.

The Ice Den has two skating rinks and a couple of party rooms. It was really nice, they decorate and do the pizza, drinks and cake thing. I thought it was pretty awesome that they really catered to the kids. They served the kids and I think the kids were kind of in shock. They all got up to get pizza and the Workergirl said no, sit down I’ll get it for you and all their eyebrows went up as they sat back down. LOL

After eating, playing & singing happy birthday and opening presents it was time for the ice skating to commence.  I didn’t know there was a difference between figure skates and hockey skates. Something about  the blade in the front?

Anyway I chose the figure skating skates. Thinking I would channel my inner Christy Yamaguchi or  Michelle Kwan. Did not  happen NOT even come close. 🙂

I already had/have a “broken ass” excuse me sprained hip flexor and I was wearing one of those big back belt brace.  I had been using it to work and it helps me keep my posture and made it less painful.  Without the brace I felt myself leaning forward from the pain or leaning back with my hand on my hip. The back brace helped keep me straight LOL well it felt good at least, I didn’t think about the ache that I was feeling.

So for the first time I put on some figure skates. Its more like heavy boots. But I had to walk from the party room to the rink; which was 3 doors down. I was off balanced then I was balanced and I figured out I could walk IF I copied Frankenstein. So I walked with my arms out and stiffed legged and I reached the rink.

So birthday girl got to ride the Zamboni; part to the Birthday Party package deal. We stood on the side of the rink waving and after standing for about 10 minutes I was like, ok I must sit. My ankles started to feel the strain of my weight. 🙂

Finally everyone got on the ice.  I made sure to be last one because I was very unsure. So they have these walkers that you can take onto the ice.  Its suppose to prop you up and help. So I gingerly get on to the ice with the walker making sure I’m hugging the wall. Mean while the everyone else is zooming by and probably on their second lap all ready.

I’m at the wall, inching myself forward. Literally. The slippery-ness makes me tense. As I move forward I scream. Thinking I’m gonna fall but I didn’t fall but I felt like I would. But my body would tense in anticipation of crashing. And I stopped. LOL I was maybe 10 feet from the gate entry and decided better quit while I’m ahead. So I  turned around and scooted back to the entry to exit.  Still screaming and startling the kids. The kid handing out the walkers was at the entry exit  and he helped me out and took the walker. I said:  I’m too old for this shit. We just cracked up.

Now I can say confidently say;  ‘yeah I tried ice skating.’


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama Pono

Random Rants & Thoughts

@Office:  Just freaking put paper in the copier! Don’t tell me you need to call IT or something is wrong with the copier blah blah blah. The reason it copied onto letterhead is because Tray 1 was empty! If you keep Tray 1 filled it won’t kick into Tray 2 – Letterhead. Swear to gawd people it is not rocket science. If its empty, fill it!

@SupremeCourtshit:  Democracy undermined? Sad state of the nation; well its a reflection of the leadership or lack of whatever. Regardless of the frkng politics our everyday lives moves on and we as people perservere inspite of the richpoliticos. We work & pay our bills & taxes & vote. We do the right thing.  Unlike those who try to hide their money offshore somewhere, try to not pay any taxes as much as possible, act like they so better than their constituents, say one thing and do totally the opposite; say they care with words but not with their actions. I feel sad for America. 😦

The 51 Senators who voted YES represent 143 million Americans and the 49 Senators who voted NO represent 182 million Americans. Democracy undermined. 😦

@Facebook: My dear FB friends, am I the only one who has not been hacked, duplicated and whatever else you have been posting at me.  Its a pyramid scheme, you know like a chain letter. Take your name off the list and  your tell your 988 friends. WTH

@Twitter&Instagram:  My bad, I’ve been using Twitter like Instagram and vice versa. Hope y’all don’t mind.

@Twitter: I have 35 Followers. Sooooooo? Does that mean I’m not popular? Not that I need to be or anyghing. Having followers is not a priority or necessary. I think of the word “Followers” in sort of the same sense as “stalkers” – so yeah I’m okay with the least amount of stalkers, I mean followers.  I’m always suspicious if/when someone I do not know in person wants to “follow” me. Where do you think I might take you? I retweet a lot, ok maybe I retweet more then I tweet. I’m retweeted like that. LOL

@Instagram: I love looking at pictures.  I should use it more. I always forget its there. 🙂

@Snapchat:  I don’t get, by the time I do its not there. What is the point? I’m slow like that.

@iceskating: I tried to yesteray.  Too hilarious. Will write about it later.



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Malama pono



Brokenass well not really broken but sure as hell painful, so Painindaass 🙂 Yes, I am Badass. LOL

Every time I say the word “ass” or “shit”, Granddaughter is on me:  LANGUAGE!

Stretching out helps. Sitting doesn’t.  Sitting for a long time sends a surge of pain across my hips or down the outside of my leg.  Did I mention I do an hour commute? Yeah so I’m very careful getting out of the vehicle.

I figured out part of the problem is me getting in the vehicle.  So graceful. LOL I get into the vehicle ASS first. Its a small SUV so its higher than my ass LOL I have to remember to step up into the vehicle not ass in first into the vehicle.  I’m learning.  I use to drive the Fast&Furious, Toyota Celica. Or Toyota Cecelia Granddaughter calls it. Its low to the ground right so I just lean on the seat and slide down. So with the SUV I guess I was leaning on the seat and trying to slide up, even though my ass didn’t reach that high, I tried anyway.  Hence the Painindaass. LOL

When I lie down and don’t move its fine. So I guess I’ll just lie down and not move. Good luck with that.


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono


Pain of the Week

The other week it was my shoulder. Rotator cuff?  I woke with an ugly pain in my shoulder.  Could not figure out what I did. Figured it out later. I don’t know how to sleep. I slept with my hand over my head something I don’t usually do. If it hurts when you do that don’t do that. 🙂

So this Saturday I got outta bed and was like WTH. A pain in the ass? No it’s not my behind, it the side, the hip. How the hell? Again I don’t know how to sleep maybe. Total achey breaky pain at the top of hip; right where I put my hand. The pain has been draining but it feels better when I stretch out and walk. Although getting started is slow and painful. I can do it! LOL

I haven’t taken any drugs for it. No Tylenol no nothing.  Glutton for punishment like that. Pain is a reminder I’m still alive. Good luck with that. All part of hypothyroiding, just deal with it.

This morning I woke up stiff but feeling better than Saturday and Sunday. So I’m confident I’m healing blah blah blah. I do an hour commute to work. Actually it is 45 minutes but you add crazy drivers, accidents, traffic in general and rain; its closer to 1 hour.

I stop at Safeway before going to work; I get out of the car and ohmylord pain sliding down my quad. I stretch out, I walk, I feel better. WTH LOL So its not my kidneys, kidneys don’t send pain down your quad right? Its a hip flexor muscle. I’m not hip and I ain’t flexible so I need to work on that.  Think hip and flexible. LOL

If its not one thing its another. My new normal.




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Malama pono

Pinterest Panic Attack

I had like a little time to kill because I did not want to start something new and it was almost time to clock out.  So I was Pinterest-ing, pinning pinning pinning and I clicked up in the corner. I noticed I had 2 accounts. Vague memory of one of them till I looked at it and there was no pins no nothing, just my name. Oh, it was when I first started  and for some reason – usually cause I couldn’t figure it out so I just started a new one.

Anyway I was thinking oh I can just deactivate it right? Wrong. Well yeah you can, but in my case – I do not know WTH I did because I must have clicked what I wasn’t suppose to click because I was totally deactivated, nowhere to be found.

I kind of panicked. My first thought was, Ohshit my funeral pictures! LOL Retarded I know. Let me explain; you know how Pinterest lets you have 4 SECRET boards, it’s not really secret it’s just not public. No one can see it unless you add a person specifically. So its just me and my kids.  Well I have a BOARD of selfies – or pictures of just me and I told my kids – those are my funeral pictures. 🙂  They said I was morbid but its a good idea. LOL So thats why I had a brief panic anxiety attack.

Anyway I had to leave work, pick up grandkid, run errands THEN when I got home I told myself no Netflix till you find your funeral pictures. LOL (gawd I crack myself up) Anyway I figured out how to deactivate the deactivation and I am good to go now.

I did not realize I have 3,446 followers. Hey I could make money on this right? Wrong 🙂  Well I probably could but I’d have to jump thru a bunch of hoops and I’m not it a jumping mood right now. LOL But I do to need to learn how to milk it, cause I need revenue.

If you are ever Pinteresting around look for: OH Linda – that be my Boards.


I like to think my Boards are diverse and interesting. Learn something new everyday.  I always think no need to add anymore boards, then I see a topic or picture and yeah, it deserves a board.

Pinterest is a public kind of place, in a free for all sense; so it creeped me out when some woman “told me” – I was being blocked because I pinned more then 10 of her pins. WAIT WHAT? My thought was – how do you police who, what, when & how much a pinner pins? The way I see it Pinterest is an open “scrapbook” virtual that it is. But IF YOU put something out there in Virtual Scrapbook land it is open to be pinned so if you don’t want it pinned off, don’t put it out there or put it in a locked board. You know what I mean?

Like being blocked is a bad thing, geezelouise; get a life. I pin because I like the picture or information. I always think I have it on a board then I know where to come look for that information or whatever. Mostly I just like looking at pictures.

Speaking of pictures I have a naked man board, ok not really; just semi nude. No pendelum swinging or anything LOL – (gawd I crack myself up) – search for -Eye Candy- I thought there was suppose to be no nudity and stuff like that on Pinterest. Excuse me, there is tits and ass all over the place. Where’s the Prude Patrol when you need them?

Every now and then I get a comment on items I’ve pinned. Dear commenter: I have no idea, I just pinned it cause I like the picture. I am not the originator so I am clueless. 🙂  Oh BTW I never answer comments. I am not there to  be social with someone or have a discussion on an item. I just wanna look at pictures and read inspirational stuff, ok?

I have one board entitled “What’s wrong with this caption?” Well if you don’t know I can’t tell you.  One person sure got on to me, I think it was her picture thats why? She wanted to know what was wrong with the caption – she did not see anything wrong. I didn’t tell her but I will tell you guys LOL – There is a difference between hula and tahitian dance, especially the customing. Tahitian is not hula and vice versa.  There is a difference between Native beadwork and African beadwork,  Native is Native and African is African, yes they may look similar but its a cultural thing, just cause it looks like it doesn’t make it that.

OH an I found this “clip” a youtube thing – which is totally disrepectful and  just plainass wrong.  It is labelled Hawaiian Wedding Song (hula dance)  – When in reality it is Arianna Tseu performing her kahiko at Merrie Monarch and some smart ass – put it too the Hawaiian Wedding Song. Hewa. So wrong.  And another one has a powwow dancer and it is labeled Hopi Kachina dancer.  For one it is obviously a powwow dancer and not even close to a Kachina dancer. The girl might be a Hopi but she was not a Kachina dancer.


I think I pin most every day. There are alot of good ideas on Pinterest. It’s also a go to place for recipies.  Not that I’ve been cooking or anyting, but if and when I do I search Pinterest.

Happy pinning to all who pin.



Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono




J-Drama: 100 Million Yen Women


I don’t even know how much 100 Million Yen is but in the movie its a big fat stack.

I usually watch K-Dramas; Korean Dramas. I watched a few Chinese one and I’ve watched Japanese movies with subtitles but this was my first J-Drama.

I think I clicked on it cause I couldn’t figure out if it was Korean, Chinese or Japanese.  I had to listen to it to find out. My ears are use to listening to Korean Dramas. I also listen to a Korean station on Pandora; all the Saranghay songs or  Korean R&B 🙂 I have no idea what its called.  Its the opposite of K-pop maybe.

Hearing/listening to Japanese is comfortable to my ears because I grew up around Japanese families. Even though I don’t know what they say  word for word I get the gist of it. And there’s subtitles. LOL

I’ve watched two Chinese Drama’s and I’ve come to the conclusion it is all the same voices. Well thats what it sounds like to my ears. There is always one of the women voices that is at a high pitch that I find irritating. I think we all have that one friend whose voice sounds like fingernails scatching a chalkboard. That irritating high pitch.

Oh so about this drama; its kind of dark but in an interesting way. There’s a lot of twist and turns and the plot thickens so I had to watch all of it. The ending answers all the questions you have in the beginning. I think thats the interesting part. Its a psycho drama but I didn’t know that till people started getting murdered. I’m slow like that.

So the premise of the story is: This guy is a writer/novelist but he ain’t famous his books hasn’t sold much, but he is working on a novel that is going to get publised. He lives in a big house right; so one day these women start to show up.  They tell him they received an invitation to live with him for 100 million yen a month, no questions ask. Nobody knows who sent out the invitation. But he’s like  yeah I need the money so fine. So five women from 5 different backgrounds he knows nothing about. Oh yeah and the rules are he can’t ask questions and he can’t go into their rooms.

Which you know from the get go; there is always that one horney female…. hehehehe

One is a 17 year old orphan still in high school. One is a famous actress, a madame, a book worm scholar chick and an emo lady.  This Dude knows nothing of their backgrounds or history because the rule is no questions asked.  Well little by little each women starts to tell him their story.  These women all have $$$$$. The one thats a madam walks around the house naked. Bonus for him right?

So he writes a book, it gets published he becomes famous. There is also this other Asshole Author who is jealous and well you have to watch the movie. The actress and the madame gets murdered. So the plot thickens.

All those left go their separate way.  Beecause somebody burned down the house with the Madame in it.  So they all go back to where ever they came from.

There’s a whole lot more about this story its too complicated to explain. But in the end the questions are answered. Who sent the invitations? What was on the invitatitions? Why each person showed up? And most of all who done it.


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama Pono


That Feeling

I felt like cleaning and minimalist-ing and so I logged on to write LOL What does that say; cause you know once you are on the computer, one click leads to another. Stay away from Netflix. 🙂

I always have these feelings of I think I will do this and hmmmm end up doing something else or doing not what I was thinking of feeling of doing. I do whatever the hell I want, when I know I should be doing household chores. heeheehee… I’m doing laundry, that counts right.

So I have attention deficit disorder, its either that or I’m lazy or I’m not motivated and frankly I don’t give a shit. LOL It will get done when it gets done.

3 HRS Later:

As I was writing because I wasn’t cleaning, I got asked if I wanted to go to lunch. HELL yeah! So I went and I’m back…. now where was I? 🙂

I have stuff to throw away. Every weekend for the past 2 months or more; I’ve been telling myself I will clean a certain catch all  area.  I’ve yet to attempt it, but I think today OR tomorrow MIGHT be that day.  Time will tell…

I will now leave and attempt to clean something. I was thinking of my sewing machine area. More distraction of fabric. I always start sewing something I had no intention of sewing.  AADD for sure.


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Malama Pono

Conference Swag

I love walking thru tradeshows or conferences and picking up all the swag; freebie stuffs.

Pens! How many pens do I need? Ya’never know.  Not all pens are created equal. I’m a pen snob like that.  I like the thicker fat ones, just cause it feels more comfortable to me. But I also want it to write smooth. I don’t like it when it feels scratchy. I have a hard time keeping good pens. I’m always loosing it or leaving it somewhere. So I guess thats why I need so many pens.

Not all swag are created equal and some are more useful then others. How many jar openers do I need? As many as I’ve picked up, why can’t I find one when I need one.

At work I’m the swg orderer. 🙂  I’m the swag sample orderer too. My go to swag supplier is 4imprint.  I don’t get to choose nothing I just order what I’m told. I can suggest. LOL I get emails all the time from all the vendors that I’ve order from. I don’t know if they know but I don’t read them, I just delete.  I know I should unsubscribe but I don’t want to hurt their feelings.   heeheehee

I’m always surprised when a company sends me samples when I didn’t even ask for anything.  It kinda feels like Christmas.  4imprint sends me a “Blue Box” – it usually has 3 samples of something or other in it.  I like the box myself, I actually use the boxes to file things and they are so ready to go into storage like that. LOL

I have a bin with all the samples that we have received. We usually donate the items to a group or shelter.  At a company I use to work at, all the swag collected over the year and it was a lot of stuff; went into a gift basket during Christmas and it was like a raffle prize. That’s a lot of doodads. One year I had enough items to make to huge gift baskets. They became know as the ultimate regift basket. LOL

One year a person who won one a regift basket had a New Years Party.  He took all what he was going to use out of the basket and the rest of the stuff in the basket was the party favors.  He told everybody take whatever they wanted  from the basket and they cleaned it out.

It surprises me at how much a pen here, a pen there, doodad here doodad there; all ands up to a ton of crap, I mean stuff. 🙂 It feels very Christmassy thought, new stuff right? 🙂



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Malama pono