Slipping Into The Future

It’s crazy that this time of year always feel like its going fast. It doesn’t feel like this in June, July, August.

It’s the rush of the holidays, yes. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas! Eat candy. Eat Candy & Turkey. Eat everything, ’tis the season.

Funny how when you want time to slow down a bit, it’s just pedal to the metal. When you want it to hurry up; its hurry up and wait. Hmmm perception.

Time keeps on slipping slipping into the future…..



I do, I want to fly to the sea let my spirit carry me….


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono


Work Travel

I suck at travel. Always having the best of intentions, going to do this and that; and end up not doing any of it. 🙂

Best part of my work travel is probably the bathtub. LOL I always bring bubble bath and facial stuff. Self spa-ing. There’s  no time to be a tourist. Going to the gift shop doesn’t count. I go, I set the meeting and pack up the meeting & go home.

I always think I could have done this or that better. I could have prepared this or that. Oh yeah the checklist? I WAS going to do a checklist. That invisible checklist that I have in my head that I was supposed to write out. When is that going to happen?  Oh yeah, woulda, shoulda, coulda but haven’t yet. On the to do list…..

I like traveling though. Literally takes me out side of the box. I do a limited amount of travel so I’m always grateful for the opportunity. Would have had no  reason to go otherwise.

My longest work travel is probably one week worth. Pending funding I might get to go in 2018.  I haven’t been in a few years, so I look forward to it. Duh 2018 starts next month. 🙂

Well now is the fun part of unpacking some of what I’ve and repack supplies and what not. But first, to catch on emails.


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono





When you HONOR someone, you honor them and not DIShonor disrespect someone else at the same time. Common sense right? Obviously not to some.

Honoring someone and dishonoring another at the same time is like: positive + negative = negative!  OMG who raised you?! If that was my kid, Godforbid; I woulda hanked’um by the ear and dragged’um away.

What did SHE have to do with anything at all. So freaking uncalled for! Obviously this person knows nothing about POCAHONTAS. MrPOSPOTUS feud with the Senator had nothing to do with honoring anybody. Insensitive. Narcissistic.  RoyalPOS.

Why even bring it UP? Is it staged? He’s that clueless?  Is it to further HIS agenda, does he understand what an agenda is? Every time I think it can’t get more embarrassing, it gets more embarrassing. HTH & WTF. Was this to disrespect the Grandpa’s in front of him, because that’s what it looked like to me. Because that’s how I was raised.

Then again I don’t think this person has a lick a sense when it comes to others. And he wonder why Black people don’t want to go to the White House, what would be the point?

How is it honorable to be name calling? Isn’t that what we correct our children about.

Granted I’m no angel. I will name call in a heart beat. It’s a description, OK? LOL BUT I do it in JEST, with good intentions, not to be harmful or mean AND I don’t do it on TV in front of a NATION & the whole world! Big freaking difference.

I’m saddened that what was suppose to be of the highest Honor turned into a disrespectful piece of rhetoric.  You wonder why Natives dislike colonizers. Pretty ugly sad.

Now you read more about “the feud” or Rs vs Ds, the tax bill.  Where is the honor in that?

Bless those Codetalkers hearts; they are not going to talkshitabout the disrespectufullness bestowed upon them even though they risk their lives for our freedoms. They are honorable people.  Million times way more honorable then……….

Be Blessed (\O/)

Love Long Weekends

Who does not like long weekends? Most working people do. Just because. You don’t need a reason. It’s there, its given, take advantage of it.

Being unemployed for a bit; those days were one continuous weekend. It was  all the same day. Same day different episode of whatever I was binge watching.

Now that I work regular I try not to bitch and moan. Okay, bitch. I moan a lot, just random sounds resonate thru my throat. WTH. I think maybe its an exaggerated sigh. Over exaggerated. LOL

Thanksgiving was quiet and glutton-full. No drama. As it should be.

I did Black Thursday. Tried to walk of the pumpkin pie at the mall. Didn’t work, I still look like a Costco Pumpkin Pie; round, brown and big. LOL Maybe even a bit crusty. Its all good.

There were some really good sales. I needed way more good money. I did get my buy 3 get 3 free Bath & Body smelly stuff; on Saturday! Not at the mall. The lines were crazy in the Bath & Body in the mall with, lines the length of the store.  I need smelly stuff but not that bad that I would stand in a line for 30 minutes to an hour. I don’t get it how people love & insist on getting it now and standing in line for less than forever. There are better things than standing in line hurrying up and waiting. Me I just walk on by……

I walked around another mall on Friday. I noticed a lot of kids shopping. Kids nowadays they must have money. Or yeah, their parents have money. As a teenager the priorities, was gas, french fries and cigarettes.  In that order and we pooled our money.  We didn’t buy “stuff”.  Obviously that was decades ago.

I spent Sunday sewing. I keep procrastinating then boom, I will crank stuff out. I feel so accomplished after I finish sewing stuff. How hard is it to sew a rectangle? 🙂  I have more projects waiting but I think I’ve been pacing myself well.

I look FWD to the next LONG weekend.


Be Blessed (\O/)


Glutton Time of the Year

I’ve been eating pumpkin pie since this past Saturday. Dang you Costco! 🙂

On Monday we had the company Thanksgiving potluck. Homemade pumpkin pie! Mmm

After 4 days of pumpkin pie, I’m eating yogurt & fruit. Probably all day. In preparation for the gluttoness days ahead. Like 4 more days of pumpkin pie. LOL

I eat a lot. WE eat alot. And yet there are so many who go with out – as I stuff my face with pumpkin pie. Its one thing to THINK about it, its another to do something about it. Sorry to say I’ve done nothing but eat.


I look forward to the gathering of family and food. I know with some people its more the food then the family.


I hope everyone has a great meal and remember everyday is Thanksgiving; just don’t eat like it is. I am very thankful for all that I have, and all that I may or maynot get. Such is life. You get what get. If its more great and if its less, work harder? Whatever.

I wish everyone a safe holiday season. I do not do  Black Friday. Everyday is cyber-Monday to me. I support the Mom&Pop small businesses. Eating and spending, two things I should not be doing but do anyway. WTH Yes, everything in moderation.  But we all have our own definition of moderation, right? My moderation is probably a tad bit bigger then your moderation. LOL


Happy Thanksgiving. Or more correctly: Happy Eating & Shopping!




Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono


It’s Not About The Turkey

Everyday is Thanksgiving. Thanks for giving.  Thankful for all that I have. Have had. Will have. Never had. Thankful I am still here when I thought I may never see my grandchildren but here I am still kicking. Thankful for still kicking, not as high but high enough. 🙂

Why is it turkey? Does it have to be turkey? Did the pilgrims roast turkey? Did the Natives teach the Pilgrims how to roast turkey? Who brought what? I bet there wasn’t any left overs. Did they have pumpkin pie – back in the day of the first Thanksgiving. I should do more research. LOL Nah – I’ll just eat.

What’s pissed me off this year is that after Halloween I could not find any Thanksgiving-ish decor stuff.  It was from Halloween straight to Christmas. ALL of the stores. A lot of stores had Halloween & Christmas out at the same time. Come November 1 and BOOM it was all Christmas, F’Thanksgiving. Grateful this, grateful that my ass. It’s commercialism, ain’t?

Christmas sells stuff, lots of stuff. Thanksgiving not so much. Thanksgiving is about groceries. Its the start of Glutton Season.

I work for a company where December is considered Goodies Month. Every workday a different goodie is shared with the whole company. People sign up for a day, and that day or should I say that month, we snack on whatever people have brought. There’s the a.m. group and the p.m. group. It started out as cookies or candies. That turned into pastries and cakes, that turned out to soup or posole, to catered pizza! Free food. we don’t judge.  We are totally spoiled. There are days when no one brings anything and we understand but we are also spoiled. LOL

So like the stores, I started talking about Thanksgiving and skipped straight to Christmas. My bad.

I don’t know what the big deal is about turkey. I’m just grateful to have meat. If its turkey fine and if there is no turkey I’m fine with that too.  A roast, steak, some kind of stew, I’m good. I do want the pie. Costco has some big ole pumpkin pies for $5.99! Yes I have done dessert first. I like pie better then turkey!



Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono




I have been being PRODUCTIVE lately. AKA getting stuff done. Dare I say shit, cause it is not shit, even if some stuff is shitty; like cleaning the bathroom. But you gotta do what you go gotta do and be done with it.

It always surprises me after I’ve done something, that I think: why did I not do it earlier?! But you know how you gotta NOT do things before you get it done. LOL Uh procrastination. I do that. Pyschological ain’t it?

But there’s a method to the madness. My madness being getting IT done, whatever IT may be. I try. I think it, but not necessarily do it and its the DOING that counts, right?

This week I’ve been DOING it. Hahaha or I think I have. Still a lot of undone. But I’ve done much. I just needed to write this to pat myself on the back for doing what I’ve done in a timely matter. Oh yeah, its called work. I’ve been working. I work everyday. Not necessarily finishing what I started but I’m working on it. 🙂

I’ve done my sewing projects. I even finished one piece. A table runner.  How hard is it to sew a rectangle? LOL Yeah so why was it sitting there all this time?  Becasue it needs to get delivered this week. Duh. Even though I’ve had the fabric for two weeks. It takes less then an hour to do it, but it takes 2 weeks to reach that hour!

Anyway off to do more productive things. Or at least start things, weather it gets done or not depends on the amount of distractions. LOL



Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono




Dear Driver Letters

Dear Driver Behind Me In Traffic This Morning:

I appreciate you not riding my ass in traffic. I like that there is space between us.

Yours truly, The Driver In Front of You


Dear Driver That Cut In Front of Me In Traffic:

1) you did not use your signal, 2) you just through your big ass Yukon in between me & the car in front me rudely, 3) notice our lane is going significantly slower then the lane you came from, 4) perhaps it was YOU who was creating the slowness!

Sincerely but not really, The Driver In Front of You


Dear Driver Who Knows The Lane Is Turn Right ONLY But Insists On Going Down That Lane Anyway So YOU Can Cut Into The Lane YOU Should Have Been In:

1) YOU are causing significant traffic because all of those behind you now have to WAIT, 2) this is not the freeway this is the surface streets,  3) YOU know this is a LONG light, 4) don’t act like this is your first rodeo & you did not know the lane your were in RIGHT TURN ONLY obviously you’ve done this before, 5) like the car you are cutting in front of has a choice to not let you in with your headlights crossed over into OUR lane, 6) the driver hastwo choices HIT YOU or let you in, 7) hitting you would mean staying there for hours, police & insurance claims and not getting home on time, 8)you need to learn not to be a rude asshole type of driver.

Yours Not Truly Because I Know You Will Do It Again, The Driver  Behind The Car That Let You In


Dear Freeway Rush Hour Traffic Driver:

KNOW where you are going. KNOW when & where your EXIT is! IF you are exiting, you should be int he right lane closes to the exit NOT in the fast lane trying to weave your ass across five lanes of the freeway. YES you WERE fast in the fast lane and now you are a dangerous piece of metal getting in every ones way. STOP IT!

Sincerely, The Drive Next To The Fast Lance




Wow this feels good. I need to write these more often. 🙂



Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono



More than several decades ago DH said: I should buy you a gun because you are home alone with the kids, a lot. I said: No I don’t know jackshit about guns & I do not want them around the babies. Fast FWD decades after that & the kids are out of the house. DH says: I should buy you a gun; you’re home alone by yourself a lot.  I say: No, I don’t know jackshit about guns and you know what could happen, we would use it on one another. (some of you may know that feeling LOL)

I am open to getting a gun provided I take a course on how to use it & gun safety & all the bells & whistles that go with it. But since I don’t know jackshit about guns I should stick to the bat behind the door.  Ok so I’m a bat person. Golf club too. That’s me. Some of my best friends are gun people. Ok maybe everybody I know is a gun people. But that’s beside the point. I’m the type that in an emergency would ask “what’s the number to 9-1-1?” So putting something in my hand that could blow up people or myself, is not a good idea. I get it!


The gun control thing is about money, ain’t it? Just like war is about money. Without war there would be no weaponry manufacturing. No gun trafficking, maybe. Gun control has a lot to do about lobbyist. My lobbyist is better then your lobbyist. The usual pissing contest. Can bigger dicks piss farther then little dicks?  Do guys practice? Rhetorical question on my part, I’m not competitive like that. LOL

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It is sad that those that should not have guns, have guns. Its even sadder for those who suffer the consequences of those people who should not have guns. It’s a double edge sword. I don’t want you not to have a gun, I want crazyass murderer types not to have a guns. But crasyass murderers don’t know how to police themselves, like crazyass bat users like me.

The mass shootings are more than a tragedy. Its damn right insane. Who thinks of going to church on Sunday and killing innocent people is ok to do, who raised you and what is your background story that makes you think what you do is normal & ok. WTF?  And the sad thing is, WE know it will happen again. because some other crazyass fuck is going to be inspired and think yeah I can do that.  The sadness is inconsolable, you know. 😦  Somethings gotta change.

All the finger-pointing and its them the ones. If it wasn’t for them this would not have happened. It was his, her, their fault. That does not do shit, but let the next mass murdered stock pile their arsenal. Gun control is oxymoronic because it is Out Of Control and nobody wants to piss off the industry blah blah blah. Oh now is not the time to speak of gun control & that industry because we are in mourning blah blah blah they gave gazillionmillions to him, her and them therefore  can’t say shit. In the mean time more people are going to die because some crazyass murderer is stock piling and plotting.  What does this say about our society? Am I wrong.

All this horrific mass shootings have desensitize us. When the shooting first broke on the news/FB, what was the first question you asked yourself…… Was it a Muslim? I did and I think Muslims did too. Then I heard First Baptist church…… Was HE Black? We/I never think SHE.  I’m sexist like that. Did we not ask ourselves the same questions about the Las Vegas shooting? I know I did. How many Black mass shooters has there been?


In the mean time, do you think our thought and prayers are going to heal the horrendous sadness of those who have lost loved ones. FN


But still we need to think good things and pray because it will help our own sadness and feelings of WTH can I do? Right? We could vote.  But in the mean time; please think good things and pray.  But if you are a potential crazyass murderer reading this; please get some fucking help.



Be blessed (\O/)

Malama pono






Buh Humbug, But Not Really

It is 4 paydays to Christmas. Yes, that’s how I gauge Christmas. Kind of heretic, ain’t it. 🙂

I use to not like Christmas. Totally mental on my part. As a child I bought in to the “if you are a good girl you will get what you want”. I found that to be a total bullshit, flat out lie.  I did not get what I want, I got PAJAMAS!. I didn’t get what I wanted for Christmas so I must not have been good, I was bad.   Didn’t get the toy I wanted. Totally didn’t get the memo we was poor. LOL I just thought, now what the hell did I do, Santa Clause does not like me. Ahhhh the mind of a child.

I think it was in JrHi/HS when I started to understand the haves and have nots. Rich people,  richer then poor, poor and dirt poor. We was just poor.  We had everything we needed food, shelter & clothing. No extras. One pair of new shoes each year.  If you had more then two its because you had hand me downs or you still fit in your old shoes. But that’s water under the bridge, I have now over compensated for not having multiple pair of shoes as a child. I’m okay with it. LOL

For a long time I was a December 26th kind of person. Could not wait till Xmas was over & done with. Even as a parent there was that lets get this over with feelings. The one thing I taught my kids about Christmas is that maybe you’ll get that one thing, not everything but be grateful for the things you do get because there are kids/people who get nothing. They grew up knowing that having Christmas presents in our house was directly related to paydays. LOL

Remember the Sears toy catalog or JC Penny’s toy catalog, before the days of ToysRUs; each kid had their own color highlighter and I told them to highlight everything they wanted for Christmas. Pretty much the whole catalog right? Then I told them to add it all up.  Which only came to thousands of dollars, which they know was not gonna happen. So then I told them pick 100 of the things you want most and add it up. Then it went down to 50, 25 and finally pick the 10 things you really really want. Ok, you MIGHT get one or two things.  That was the wish list.  And I bought them pajamas.

I always feel Christmas is fun with my kids & now grandkids weather you get want you want or not.  I rarely ask for what I want for Christmas because I have this childhood fear of not getting it. I hate setting up myself for disappointment. Although now its not such a big thing. I get what I get. I’m just happy not to get pajamas. LOL

My kids are big on list, about this time they all start sharing one another’s list of what do you want for Christmas.  I always say, “surprise me.” And they always say “you say that every year.”  Now that the kids are all grown & live in different states, any time all 3 siblings are together, that is Christmas to me.

Hmmm what do I want for Christmas? World peace? Fat chance.  I want a round trip plane ticket home, 2-3 weeks condo & car rental back home. I’ve not been home since 2011. How sad is that? Think Santa Claus will come up with that? Yeah, I think I have to do my own Santa Clausing on that one. LOL  Let me see, what do I need:  itunes card, gift cards form where ever  works for me, I need a pair of moccasins (like the real kine) .  I dunno its stuff, do I need more stuff. Yes, I want a SurfacePro. That’s what I want! If “everybody” throws in for that one thing, it could happen! ❤


Be Blessed (\O/)

Malama pono